So much has happened -how on earth do I process it all? The creeping realisation is that I'm losing my best friend. That the one person I thought loved me more than anything, who would do anything for me, doesn't (and probably hasn't for some time) love me.
It feels as though he's shedding me as fast as he can. And it shocks me and saddens me and upsets me.
And yet .... we talk, we laugh, we eat together, we do things together.
The tears continue to come - at times I am overwhelmed by the feelings of abandonment. I'm trying to face the reality by telling people - and then I've overwhelmed by their love and care.
I don't want to face the future. I want him to change his mind - but that's not on the cards.
I'm drowning in this vale of tears......... :(
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