R is off on retreat this week. So I get to practice being on my own.
I used to really look forward to the odd days when he was away, a chance to do what I wanted. Now, just 4 hours in, it feels so bleak. I'm sitting here thinking that never again will there be someone who misses me when he's away. Never again will there be someone who looks forward to coming home to me. Never again will time on my own just be fun - it will be a life sentence.
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